Friday, April 22, 2011

The dead tree--died gracefully and harmlessly--

I look at the 10 feet tall stump of the ancient tree ,since it collapsed and was chopped off to clear the road and , I feel very philosophical. The tree fell down at about 7 am, when there is hardly any traffic on this side road, The cars are not yet parked there and the rush for the train station adjoining is not there. It made sure it did not hurt or kill anybody. The old man Mr Parwin Mawani , age 76, looks sadly at the stump of the tree and said it was a gentlman tree--- it died without harming anyone!!
I have made it an addition to my spontaneous prayer to lord almighty, since then--- In death , let me be a gentlman--let me not harm or hurt anyone in any way when i die--- either financially or otherwise-- both my parents died of cancer--- if i have to die of cancer, i have decided to let the cancer take me --- no radiological treatments for me-- i will not reveal to anyone that i have cancer----
Best wishes and I shall keep blogging--God willing--capt samson ezekiel

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

THE TREE DIED TODAY--

Not a world threatening event I guess but shook me for a while-- the ancient large tree just adjacent to my office in mumbai,india , broke and collapsed and died-- saw the mumbai police and fire brigade personnel cutting it down to small pieces and moving it away so that the blocked traffic of cars and people could resume. This tree was amazing-- had a creeper of a special kind growing right upto its full height of about a four srorey building. this creeper was not of the money plant type ,but a special kind known as Bel Vel -- the favourite plant of the hindu god Shiva. I was not aware of it for many years until a doctor mentioned to me that it was special. just touching this tree in the morning ,gave a strange kind of fullness and calmness to the mind and body. Now just a ugly stump remains. Maybe time for me to move on to another office. Maybe not. At 64 , every day i feel like i am a survivor and wish silently that God will take me away before i become totally useless and dependent on others. This collapse of this great tree of over 100 years old, is trying to tell me something!! capt samson ezekiel . Email: captezekiel@gmail.com